Days

There are days you sit in the dark and just bleed

You fail to be able to pull yourself out of yourself

And fall down

Exhausted from pushing that boulder up that

Damn hill.

Trying to hold on

Hold tight

To not slip away

To not cease

To be

Maybe it would be easier to just let go

Let the tide take you

To just unmoor yourself

To stop fighting against the currents

Threatening to swamp you

To extinguish that fire

That has kept you warm for oh so long

That kept you company in the dark

It flickers and gutters

Sputtering

Raging against the night

Seeking oxygen

To just breathe

To exist

To be

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